I really don’t know what to do with my life. I am scared. I like my job, but I don’t fell it’s what I really should be doing right now, I have a lot to do and the price for my job it’s my health. I went to the hospital already and don’t wanna go again. I know I can’t just let everything go, but what I should do? Focus on my health? On my grades? On my job? They are all important to me.
And my parents, oh, my parents. They have always expected to much from me and I always let them down. I have everything a person could wish for. A lovely family, nice house, great life style, culture, great college… And, even with all those things, I just can’t be the perfect person, because this person will never exist in this world. I really tried to be, but I just can’t. My heart say one thing, but when I look to my parents I fail to grant my wish. I know they will be always by my side supporting me and that’s what hurts the most. Even with I wrong, they always says nice words of care and support. I just… don’t wanna disappoint them anymore.
You can call me crazy, but when you have everything you can’t do anything, it’s hard, believe me.
But words can hurt more than punches. This evening I had to read some hard words from someone I once called “friend”. It was a nice text, just like when you are writting to a mayor or something, and that’s what hurted me. It was like someone was laughing on my face while hitting me. And I wanna cry. Because I now I remember I lost a friend and it hurt.
COULD YOU PLEASE STOP BLOGGING THOSE DAMN FUCKING THING ABOUT SINGLESS?? BECAUSE YOU KNOW VERY WELL HE, OH MY GOSH, WONDER WHY, REMINDS ME OF KARKAT, AND YOU KNOW FUCKING WHAT? HE’S MY FUCKING FAVORITE TROLL. AND I REALLY TRYING TO DRAW EVERYTHING BUT HOMESTUCK. ARE YOU FUCKING LISTENING TO ME? ARE YOU??? THINK WELL.
“I hate the word “fate.”
Birth, encounters, partings, success and failure, fortune and misfortune in life.
If everything is already set in stone by fate, then why are we even born?
There are those born wealthy, those born of beautiful mothers and those born into war or poverty.
If that’s all caused by fate, then God must be incredibly unfair and cruel.
Because, ever since that day, none of us had a future.
The only thing we knew was that we would never amount to anything.”—
Shouma, Mawaru Penguindrum
still obsessing over penguindrum right now sorry, looking up old quotes and shit
I’m always afraid when my parents talk about money. I just feel like a parasite. I really have to get another job. Don’t care about my health anymore, I just wanna help my family! I want to cry everytime they say we are getting less money, I wanna help!!
Purple: 10 facts about my room. Blue: 9 facts about my family. Green: 8 facts about body Yellow: 7 facts about my childhood Orange: 6 facts about my home town. Red: 5 facts about my first bestfriend(s). Pink: 4 facts about my parents. White: 3 facts about my personality. Grey: 2 facts about my favourite things Black: 1 fact about the person I like
Yeah, I know it’s HER party, but I can’t stop myself from thinking “WHY YOU INVITED HER?? WHY??”
I can’t stand her and that is a FACT. Oh, and by her I mean my cousin. Just because she have problems, everyone wants to be lovely with her. I dont give a shit about this. Everyone have problems in this damn world! I WILL NOT feel sorry for someone who made mistakes and don’t realize it. She almost ruined my life and my family!!
is someone kind to me because of this? NO. She made a lot of mistakes and people feel bad for her. I almost lost my brothers, my parents and my biggest dream and people say thats just my job in life to overcome this. To hell with this.
I don’t wanna charity. I just wanna justice. I swear by my own name that I will live to see the day when everyone will realize this whole mistake. And when this day comes, I will not forgive anyone. Why would I? Only strong people survive in this world and I am not a weak person. Just as I am not a kind person. I hold a lot of grudge in my heart and if eleven years couldn’t take this from me, I don’t think anything can do this anymore.