No matter how many times I try to draw again with my tablet, I just cant. I need to draw with paper and pen. I need to feel that I still can draw traditional art. That I’m still useful somehow. I need someone to say “I got talent” for something. Anything. If i’m part of this whole mess we call world, I have to know where I belong to, what I have to do. What I CAN to.
But at same time, Im afraid of show my art to other people. If someone say something bad again, I will lose it for sure. I cant love anything. I just know I love art. I cry when I hear a nice music. My heart race when I see a nice work. I suppose it’s called love, this thing. I dont know where it come from, it just came. And if its the only thing I love, I cant let it go.
Lots of people are leaving me. But I know art will always be by my side.
I just know it’s a stupid thing to think, but…. Now that a have a new internet’s “name”/nickname, a tumblr where anybody from college and close friends will find me out. I feel free. For the first time in a while, I feel free. Just like back the days it was Aline and me alone. Even with the short…
I love you too bb ;A;
With all those”JYJ concert” around I cant stop thinking about the beginning. First, the two of us. Later, we were five. Later, a lot of people came but without any love. And now, even when we say we are together, I can see it like in the past. I think thats way I like HoMin more than JYJ, not only because all the money and shit involved. But because one day I was part of five people and now I can only see you and me.
I love and always will love them, but deep inside, I know it.
Thats why I wanna say this, that you are not alone, you are doing great, be strong!
I just know it’s a stupid thing to think, but…. Now that a have a new internet’s “name”/nickname, a tumblr where anybody from college and close friends will find me out. I feel free. For the first time in a while, I feel free. Just like back the days it was Aline and me alone. Even with the short time and long distance, we were always togheter. Trading latter, emails and smiling every saturday because we could talk to each other.
Sis, the truth is I miss those days. I can not say I am unhappy now. I meet a lot of great people and have my life, but I just miss you. I’m afraid of get idiot saying this everyday and sending you sms all the time. In our small world, we were happy. I know that world broke a long time ago, but even if I miss it, I swear I’ll build a new you for us. A world filled with happiness, where no one will hut you again. I love you sis, thats why I will to whatever I can to protect you.
And I want to say sorry. For not being at your side those days, when I think you need the most, but even apart, my heart will ALWAYS be with you, because everyday of work, when I think about you, I put more energy in it. I’m steel weak, sister, but soon I will be strong enough to be by your side again, like nine years ago, when we meet.
WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK ABOUT I CREATE A NEW TWITTER ACCOUNT JUST FOR WIRTE IN ENGLISH????
I CANT STAND MY JYJ FRIENDS BITCH ALL OVER THE PLACE AND WANTING ME TO JOIN THEM WHEN I ALREADY SAID I DONT LIKE JYJ
OF COURSE I WILL BE MORE THAN HAPPY TO TALK ABOUT EVERYKIND OF THING, BUT CANT STAND SOME PEOPLE AND THEIR FANDOM ANYMORE. I LOVE THEM, I TRULLY LOVE, BUT THEY ANNOY ME AS HELL WITH THIS AND A CANT EVEN TALK ABOUT WHAT -* I *- LIKE. WANT MORE FRIENDS, I WANT TO NOW MORE BBCS, DALMATIES, VIPS, CASSIES…!!!