Just to put this somewhere even thought I promised to myself that I would not do this kind of thing on tumblr anymore.
I think everyone know that I hate my cousin. She is the karma of my life. Point.
Today shes coming to my house and I hate this. Because my brother was coming to my house, and he’s in a critical moment in his life, needing my help. But now he will go to our other brother house and I feel left aside. Just like six years ago, when they had a fight with our father and spend a whole year without talking to me. I hate this feeling. They made a lot of wrong things, things that I dont think I will be able to forget, but they are my brothers, I will forgive them. I love them.
But I dont love my cousin. And with this I know that I will never be able to forgive her for everything that she made until now, things that still hurt me and she know. All she can say to me is that she is envy of my life. Nice excuse.
I wanted my brother. I want to be by his side right now, giving him support and love, like he gave me last week when I was in the deep of despair. He embraced me, kissed my head and made me smile. I wanna do this to him to. Show my love.